So its been about one month since I started my blog and I wanted to take a second and recap. I started this blog on Christmas day when I suddenly got the idea with a flash of energy. This is how most of my motivation comes. I am do nothing and then I decide that I want more of something in my life and I come up with an amazing idea that I start and never finish. Well this time I got farther then normal. I am really committed to doing this blog, but the reason I started it is not being fullfilled.
I started this blog to find myself and to really live my life, but that is not what I am doing. I feel like I need to explain myself a little better so that everyone has a clear picture of who I am .
I am motivated in mind but not by action. I dream big but do not fullfill. Do I think am lazy? No, I do a lot. I work at least 45 hours a week. I take care of my kids and try to be the best mom and wife that I can be, but there is so much missing. I aspire to be so much more, to do so much more. That is why so many things on my list are so simple. I am always saying that I am going to do something and never follow through. Simple things like doing crafts with the kids will get replaced with a movie so it gives me time to relax. I say that I am going to lose the weight, but here I am three years later still over weight and doing nothing about it. These are all things that I feel will help me really live. My mind gets so foggy sometimes and I feel lost. I want to wake up and live the life that I have always imagined. I started by saying that when I win the Powerball I will do this and I will do that. This is when I relized that many of the things that I wanted to do I could be doing. This is why this last month is still me just doing the motions but not really feeling the change. Don't get me wrong I did do many things but I am not changing my life.
This month I am going to try harder to achieve my goals and make it a life changing month. I want to see myself get more motivated and feel like I matter. I will be starting with some things from my list that will help me get there. This month I am going to get organized, we are going to stick with our chour chart, we will start eating healthy and working out regularly. I will go to church every week and do my meditations. All this I feel will be a huge step in getting my mind clear and focused.
Wish me luck, here I go on my next adventure.